The Hanged Man
What is the greatest sacrifice you were forced to make or chose to make?
Years ago, I sacrificed my childhood to the ugly jaws of reality. I did not enjoy doing it, but I felt that the life I was given called for a faster rate of maturity than other children. A single-parent, low-income household with little time to learn from mistakes meant that I could not play around. The result: I find it increasingly difficult to meaningfully connect with other people my age and everyone believes that I am older than I look.
What, if anything, are you waiting for? What is "on hold"?
Don't judge me, but I am waiting for my English prince charming to come find me, and I am waiting for the opportunity to be able to fulfill my dream of working for the BBC. Reality will tell me to expect the possibility of getting a squire and settling for an American film or television company.
Where in your life could you benefit from surrendering control?
I could probably benefit from surrendering the control of most things. I am one of those "type A people"/ control freaks and I am not afraid to admit it. I plan everything from what I am going to say, to what I am going to eat, what I am going to do in the next five minutes, to what I am going to do in the next five years. I love control. But a therapist would most likely advise me to not have such a tight control on life and just let some things go with the flow.
What limitation that you initially struggled against have you come to accept?
A limitation that I initially struggled with that I have now come to accept is my mobility range. After being diagnosed with RA last year, moving around and leading a normal young adult life seems to be more of a luxury than ever. But life continues on, thus, so must I.
When has "being out of your element" given you a new perspective?
I have been pondering this question for a few days and the only response that I can come up with is that I have a very large element range. There are not many things in life that I would consider to be "out of my element" except for mathematics and science, and that blew up in my face. Long story short, I am definitely not going to be looking for a career in those fields.
When have you felt ridiculed or ostracized for being true to yourself?
When I tried reading a certain family member's palm for fun, another certain family member ridiculed me for doing something against God and for being a "bruja" (witch). I guess it is a good thing that they did not know that I was already seriously practicing witchcraft or else I might have been cut off from the family.
The Hermit
To what questions are you looking for answers?
The question that I seek an answer to is "what will my happiness look like years from now?" I will probably never get a clear answer no matter how many tarot readings I do.
For whom are you a mentor or guide?
I work with children anywhere from six weeks to ten years old. Everyday that I am with them, I act as their guide to learning the ways of life. My responsibility is to keep them safe, but also to help them develop skills that will become important to them later on such as walking, talking, reading, proper behaviour, etc. No pressure.
From whom do you seek sage advice?
Whenever I am in need of sage advice, I look toward the Goddess and the little signs that she places everywhere. If that does not work as well as I would like, however, I turn to my Baba. He uses his past experiences to help me with my life and the paths that I might take.
How comfortable are you in undistracted solitude?
I am comfortable being in undistracted solitude every once in a while. I find that long periods of quiet are actually more distracting to me than if I were to be in a cafeteria.
When do you feel the need to retreat into yourself?
What activities do you most enjoy alone?
It is a tad difficult to say that I enjoy doing activities alone since I specifically like to do certain activities without the involvement of others, but still in the company of people. I need to be able to feel the presence of a living body or hear human conversation. For the sake of this question, however, I will say that my top three activities would be; 1) reading with a cup of Earl Gray or chai, 2) working on a jigsaw puzzle, and 3) doing research. I will say that if there are no humans, there should be a cat nearby.
What area of study completely absorbs you?
Not surprisingly, pagan studies will often take up hours of my time as I try to glean as much knowledge as I can about the history of the culture and ritual practices. What some people do not know about me is that I also have a very profound interest in the psychological effects of color on the human body. Don't believe the extent of my interest? Check out my website: http://colorpsycho.weebly.com
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